G[r]adding about.

[It took me several minutes to decide how to write that title.]

Sometimes I look at my statistics here at The Blotted Line and think “why, for the love of Ben, does anyone continue to visit this site?” Alright, I seem to have tapped into that exclusive Jonson-Middleton-Marston-Thomas Dekker demographic — and it’s nice to see that searches for Cynthia’s Revels, humours and city comedy, and The Insatiate Countess are consistently queried and sent my way.  I suspect, however, this only counts for about twelve people worldwide.  Don’t the rest of you realise that I lack proper credentials, and that I lead a singularly uninteresting life? (One can categorise many of the entries in the last two months as concerning one of three topics: the way I’ve arranged my living space, the food I’ve eaten, or the exploits of my cat.)

Apparently not.  Here are the banalities of the last month or so.

I think an effect of grad school is that one always feels terribly behind in research.  I do feel terribly behind, but these feelings are irrational. I’ve completed all but two assignments in both my courses (and completed them decently well). I’ve made my way through not only all the readings for my course work, but also all of the optional readings (even Spenser’s A View of the State of Ireland, which added over one hundred pages to my reading load that week). I’ve also completed all my TA readings (excepting that one play the week we were on strike).  I’ve collected all the texts/articles I need for my research papers in Gothic (Lady Audley’s Secret, the circulation of art objects, and the traumatic histories they carry) and Spenser (a reading of the Actaeon myth in III.v of The Faerie Queen, and Spenser’s figuring of Ovidian rape and violence).  I submitted my MA thesis proposal (a psychoanalytic-feminist consideration of the performance of female communities around marriage in Jonson’s Caroline drama), and even a proposal for a conference next spring (a psychoanalytic reading of Jonson’s The Alchemist ). [My interior editor feels I should note that these last two feats aren't so impressive given that both proposals existed in some form six months ago.] Perhaps I feel behind in that I’m not sure I have enough time to finish all the reading I would like to do for my final papers, and to be prepared for beginning the introduction to my thesis once the proposal is approved.

Yes, but I never have time to do all the reading I’d like.  This is the sole reason I have yet to complete Gaiman’s American Gods, which I’ve been reading since the summer.  I have about 200 pages left.  When I finish the thing (I write with affection: it’s Gaiman, and so, good), I plan to get through a pile of young adult books that have been amassing on my floor: Joyce Carol Oates, Meg Rosoff (please please go read Meg Rosoff), and Ellen Hopkins are among these, and a few more texts in the vein of Hopkins (poetry for young adults seems on the rise, and I am both pleased and intrigued). Then I will settle in, one more time, with Anna Kerinina. One year, I will finish it.

I’m not a proper grad student if I don’t write about my cat. In her continued, but somewhat misguided attempts to win my affection, Celia has been practicing how to pull books off my shelves. If I can manage to teach her how to retrieve the proper titles, I’ll be thrilled.  As of now, she mostly makes a (loud) mess of things.  Also, the books, when they finally tip out onto the floor, seem to terrify her.  But she reasserts her dominance by falling asleep on them for hours, rendering them motionless and non-threatening.

Cats are all well and good, but people with whom to read, gripe, panic, eat, drink, and go to the opera are also a grad school necessity. I feel I should end this with compliments to Jesse who, even though he never reads these things, is a first-rate confederate in all these activities (he also carries our cats on trips to the vet, makes sure I go to the pub sometimes, and almost always walks me home). He reminded me the other day that he was, in fact, awesome.  A statement which is as accurate as it is narcissistic (but mostly it’s just accurate).

That about exhausts the goings-on here.

22 November 2009 ~ Hamilton

While grading papers tonight…

I found myself reading a very casual description of Henry V’s sex life [i]. Well, the paper was on 3.4, and Queen Catherine’s English lesson, in which she observes the similarities between the English “foot” and “gown” and the French “foutre” and “con”. (I’m trying to avoid spam: go look them up in your Shakespeare notes.)

I sometimes wonder if my students take my good-humoured manner in seminar as an invitation to be so casual in their written work. Or perhaps they take the “short paper” assignment to imply a degree of informality.  Or they think that because Shakespeare uses informal, bawdy language in his play, they can too. Either way, it’s a drastic misreading of the genre of their assignment.

Sorry, third years, a formal paper is a formal paper: avoid those colloquialisms.

13 November 2009 ~ Hamilton

End Notes.

[i] Henry’s sex life. The phrase “get shag” was used.  Then I had to explain to Jesse what the phrase means. Shag is a synonym for a female body part, guys.  “La con.” Look it up.

Now I just have to write the thing.

ProposalAt least it’s a very official-looking proposal. (And I finished well before midnight: if I can continue in this way I’ll be a very happy grad student).

11 November 2009 ~ Hamilton

Some thoughts on picketing.

Picketing is not fun.  Few people, I think, wake up at six in the morning thinking “I can’t wait to be out on that picket line!”  Picketing (in November, in Southern Ontario) is cold and exhausting (yesterday it hailed on the 11.30-3.30 shift).

Picketing is festive however: it’s disruptive, but controlled disruption.  There are codes of behaviour, both official (agreements about where to picket, what kinds of signs we can hold, how long we can interrupt traffic) and non (what to wear, what not say to drivers).  There’s a community that forms in the picket space: in spite of cold and wet, the physical exhaustion that comes with walking or standing outside for four hours at a time, and the psychological exhaustion that attends listening to drivers and students yell at one, and the worry over losing money and study time, we persist. And, knowing that we have so many discomforts and anxieties to work against, we persist in an effusively cheerful manner: we play music, sing, and dance, and cheer for the support we do get, we share food, and thoughts on how to keep warm.  We use the time to foster interdisciplinary friendships (or at least acquaintances), and to catch up on reading. And there’s food.

What’s fascinating is that not only does our forced good mood actually help make the time more tolerable, it also affects  the annoyed drivers, some of whom are visibly conflicted as they attempt not to laugh at the perverse cheeriness of the group.

I’m exhausted right now, and do look forward to the end of this strike: but if I have to picket, I’d rather do it with this lot than anyone else.

6 November 2009 ~ Hamilton

Erin’s guide to good MAing.

Making a mess of things: what Celia does to my apartment.Last night I found myself feeling fairly guilty at the way I behaved in my Victorian Gothic class.  The presenter invoked some theory in which I’m particularly interested right now: psychoanalysis.  While the secondary readings for the discussion were psychoanalytic texts (an article comparing the economic structures of Victorian banking and mental illness ala Freud, and Julia Kristeva’s “Approaching Abjection” from Powers of Horror), the discussion which I and about five other people ended up having drew from psychoanalytic texts well beyond these readings.  The problem with this discussion was that it left out the other five or six people in the room who had not read those texts, and did not have a vocabulary to discuss the problems through which we were attempting to work (problems we could have discussed with a more strict adherence to the assigned readings).

Engaging in productive discussion involves opening that discussion to everyone involved.  I’m irked with myself because I noticed that the group of us were closing the discussion to other members of the group (and some of them looked uncomfortable being excluded in a such a way) — and yet I persisted in spite of that knowledge.  This does not make for good academic practice, and it violates the few rules I set for myself when entering a class environment:

1. Know what the group has read (in line with knowing your audience in a paper or presentation): clearly link all new material back to these shared readings, or the agreed-upon course vocabulary.

2. When using theory or referring to texts outside the course syllabus, clearly and  concisely define all new terms and concepts before using them in textual analysis.

3. Exercise rigour with theoretical terms: do not conflate or use interchangeably different terms from different theorists. Know the theory you introduce, and be prepared to explain it.

4. Only refer to texts outside the course material if it is relevant and necessary, and will add to course discussion.

5. Never use the seminar to work through problems in personal research (unless that research is relevant and useful to the particular discussion at hand).

I made a mess of things yesterday. Shall do better next time.

6 November 2009 ~ Hamilton

To the Jorys, at the birth of their first child.

Oh, what pleasure do you take

To hear the nurse discovery make,

How the nose, the lip, the eye,

The forehead full of majesty,

Shews the father, how to this

The mother’s beauty added is;

And after all with gentle numbers,

To woo the infant into slumbers.

And these delights he yields you now,

The swathe and cradle this doth show;

But hereafter, when his force

Shall wield the rattle and the horse,

When his ven’tring tongue shall speak

All synalaephaes,* and shall break

This word short off, and make that two,

Prattling as obligations do,

‘Twill ravish the delighted sense

To view these sports of innocence,

And make the wisest dote upon

Such pretty imperfection.

These hopeful cradles promise such

Future goodness, and so much,

That they prevent my prayers, and I

Must wish but for formality.

I wish religion timely be

Taught him with his ABC

I wish him good and constant health

His [parents'] learning, but more wealth.

May he have many and fast friends,

Meaning good will, not private ends

[...] Have no sad cares to break his sleep

Nor other cause, than now, to weep.

May he ne’er live to be again

What he is now, a child;  may pain,

If it do visit, as a guest

Only call in, not dare to rest.

4 November 2009 ~ Hamilton.

Glossary of Terms.

synalaephaes. n. “confused sounds”

Works Cited.

Cartwright, William. “To Mr. W.B., at the Birth of His First Child.” Ben Jonson and the Cavalier Poets. Ed. Hugh MacLean. New York: Norton, 1974. 282-283.

In the event that anyone is remotely interested…

in the sorts of small assignments/weekly preparation I do for class, here is the Spenser position I posted for this week’s discussion (I feel better posting it now the class is finished for the week)

Stephen Orgel argues concerning court masques:

In a theater employing perspective, there is only one focal point, one perfect place in the hall from which the illusion achieves its full effect.  At court performances this is where the king sat, and the audience around him at once became a living emblem of the structure of court.  The closer one sat to the monarch, the “better” one’s place was, an index to one’s status, and more directly, to the degree of favor one enjoyed. (10-11)

The king’s position as privileged gazer gives him authority: his eyes view the masque’s entire spectacle. This gaze that signifies his power also opens the king’s body to the gaze of the other spectators who read the “living emblem” (allegory) of the room, noting who shares the king’s gaze. James’s power depends upon these other gazes being present. Orgel’s metaphor models how gazes work in early modern court (Elizabeth’s or James’s): attending a masque or conducting court business, the monarch’s body occupies the central position, and nearness to their gaze determines the power of bodies around them.

Britomart occupies the privileged position of gazer in Cupid’s masque in III.xii, though her body is vulnerable in a way that Elizabeth’s and James’s are not; their bodies may be the object of courtiers’ gazes, and open to malicious “readings” (gossip), but those monarchs maintain control: it is their body, their gaze which sets in motion the flow of other gazes at court.

Britomart in III.xii is not the subject of a visible gaze: she is alone for most of the masque. Yet following her viewing of the masque her body is physically opened: “The wicked weapon [...] strooke into her snowie chest” (III.xii.32).  The moment recalls III.ii, when Britomart’s gaze renders her vulnerable (as she looks into the mirror and falls in love with Artegall).  Add in the narrator’s description in III.xi.53, as Britomart views the tapestry: “The warlike Mayd [...] could [not] satisfy / Her greedy eyes”.  The gaze is among Britomart’s greatest weaknesses.

Unlike Orgel’s monarchs, Britomart’s body does not possess any inherent authority. Authority resides in the body of the absent Busirane, the narrator who describes Britomart, and the reader who, unknown to Britomart, watches her body watching the masque. Britomart’s position in Spenser’s poem mirrors her position in the histories of Britain: Britomart has no control over her future, or whom she loves. Her gaze as she looks into the mirror in III.ii is controlled by an invisible author of history [God?]: little wonder this gaze is displaced by a mirror!

Works Cited

Stephen Orgel. The illusion of power: political theater in the English Renaissance. Berkeley: U of California P, 1975.

4 November 2009 ~ Hamilton

Celia in the fridge.

And this is how Celia makes cooking take twice as long as it should.

2 November 2009 ~ Hamilton

(Also, I apologise for the dissemination of kitten photos, that are entirely frivolous and non-literary.)

The fridge is her Everest.The crisper proves a challenge.Considering another shelf.This shelf has the meat.HPIM1442Disgusted with the lack of available food, Celia leaves the fridge.By the way, this is what she is usually seeking.

Preparation time.

Yesterday I stood at the kitchen counter, knife in hand, finally confronting the pumpkin that had sat on my table for the better part of the last week.  I found myself weirdly appreciative of my mother for teaching me how to cook.  The pumpkin is, after all, one of the weirder-looking vegetables, and, if one doesn’t already know better, also appears fairly inedible.  I think if I had not spent so much time in the kitchen with my mother when I was younger, I might have given up in despair before I even started attempting to cut the thing (“pie, soup, muffins, roasted seeds, perhaps, but damned if I know how to get at them”); more likely, I would have tried to cut the large gourd and made an utter mess of things (there’s a story in my family where I tried to serve ice cream before it had time to thaw: my brother came home to an angry little sister and a block of half melted, half frozen ice cream with the scoop, two bent spoons, and a knife stuck in the frozen half).

Following the fairly simple procedure for pumpkin preparation, I did not make a mess of things: insert the knife halfway and use the middle of the blade to slice once around the circumference, producing two halves.  Scoop out the interior of the pumpkin (the part which seven-year-olds universally refer to as “pumpkin guts”) with your hands, separating the seeds from the stringy flesh. Use a spoon to scrape out any remaining strings; dispose.  Quarter  the halves, and halve the quarter segments.  Slice off the rinds.

By the time I went to sleep yesterday, I had a large container of cubed pumpkin, and one each of butternut and buttercup squash, from which I made two separate meals (pie, and soup) for the rest of the week. I had also realised why it never bothered me that my mother was so insistent that I learn how to cook.  She never approached cooking as something that was an inevitable part of being female; indeed, my brother, too, learned how to cook, and some of the best memories we have together are spent in the kitchen, preparing meals for our parents (for a change).  My mother taught me how to cook because, as she would reiterate, “you’ll need to know it when you live on your own.” Cooking was the farthest thing from an education for a future that would end in marriage and cooking for my three children: it was preparation for a future as an independent adult.

When I was older, and busier (and snarkier), I used to brush off my mother’s cooking lessons, telling her I would learn how to cook when I finally did live on my own.  I’m pleased, now, that she was so persistent.  Otherwise I may not have been able to do all this today:

Pumpkin pie: always looks funny not made with sugar, but it tastes the same (the crust is pleasantly like a non-sweet shortbread).

Dill and cucumber salad.  Needs more dill.

Squash and wild rice soup. Goes well with spicy white wine.

Penne, spinich, and portabello casserole (the best of the four dishes today).

Soy-roasted pumpkin seeds.

1 November 2009 ~ Hamilton